i'm so incredibly exhausted. my mind refuses to function and my eyes droop down heavily. tonight i was out with ryan and his lovely girlfriend malgojata (spelling!)(a very close friend) for a game of pool. and the previous night with himal bhai and ramona bhabi (from cape town) and friday night with sheetal (the homeopath at the shop) and her cronies. and this is night only - i'm not even mentioning what happened during the day. ok, so i'm exhausted. that - apart from the emotional exhaustion from waiting for laxi.

laxi's visa hasn't come through yet and it's not only exhausting but incredibly frustrating. it's been over a month now and our patience is wearing dangerously thin. i constantly feel that something is blocking our path - that something is preventing the full light from shining and i have no idea what to do about it.

i guess it boils down to keeping your nose to the grind-stone and keeping the faith. in the end, in the good 'ol end, it's the universe and only the universe that's real... it's only love that's real...